At 37, the author reflects on life's challenges, balancing motherhood with personal dissatisfaction and feelings of stagnation. Despite being grateful for her life, she struggles with aging, self-image, and a sense of emptiness. Counseling provides temporary relief, but she longs for passion and clarity amidst her unresolved emotions.
Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I went through a messy divorce, which was by far the hardest part of my life, even worse than losing my dad, yet I had moved on, remarried, and finally found happiness. However, my ex-husband remained a thorn in my side. Every move I made, he managed to complicate. He... Continue Reading →
As I walk to my seat in my freshman Intro to English class, I feel this guy looking at me. I glance his way, and he is just smiling and kind of trying to make eye contact. I can tell that he is thinking of something to say. This should feel exciting. It is college.... Continue Reading →
As I have tried to grapple with the rage in our world, and how people are supposed to help, it comes back to educating our children. I teach in a predominately white school corporation, but I still give my students materials that focus on issues we are facing in the world and the world that... Continue Reading →
Do you feel accepted and liked? Geez, that’s a tough question! I don’t know, sometimes? I guess it depends on who I am around. I have some awesome people in my life who include me in their plans, and I hope that means they like me. I am so grateful for that, considering that I... Continue Reading →
I had started journaling and am working on creating habits that help me understand more about myself. I had set an intention to do something nice for myself every day. I started attempting to make ME a priority and not put myself on the back burner, but it is so easy to fall into that... Continue Reading →
My husband recently turned 40, and we were fortunate enough to take a trip to Jamaica. I had been envisioning this vacation for months and had packed way too many swimsuits and outfits that I would never wear at home. Who doesn’t do that for vacay? That’s what’s so awesome about getting away. I had... Continue Reading →
Dear 20-Year-Old Self, First, I love you. I am proud of you. You are a good mom. No one really ever tells you that, but you need to hear it. I know that having a baby at 18 changed everything. You had to grow up fast, but you are going to be ok. My advice... Continue Reading →
A wave of sadness has come over me as Easter is approaching. I log onto Facebook, and a memory from 10 years ago pops up. I see a picture of my son on Easter, and think…so much has changed over the years. The picture is taken at house that is a distant memory of a... Continue Reading →
Little boxes on the hillside, Little boxes made of ticky tacky Little boxes on the hillside, Little boxes all the same, source: https://www.lyricsondemand.com/tvthemes/weedslyrics.html Complacent-Predictable-Monotonous My day can be summed up into the lyrics of three songs. Let’s start with the opening lyrics from the Showtime Series, Weeds. In today’s world, we are still Keeping up with... Continue Reading →
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