My emotions are a paradox. I have this deep sense of gratitude and sadness at the same time. My days have changed tremendously in the past week. I went from a routine of teaching middle school kids about Language Arts and looking forward to spring break to homeschooling an 8th grader and a kindergartener, while making e-learning assignments for my school kids.
My gratitude comes from my ability to provide everything that my family needs at this time. God is good. I have leaned on my Faith during this time, and I am grateful that I have been able to slow down and appreciate this time. My kids have healthy meals, can keep up with their educational needs, and I am able to provide for them emotionally. What more could I ask for? The more time I have to think about my life, the more I realize that my life is pretty great.
Where does the sadness come in? I’m scared for the families who cannot do this. I’m scared for the kids who may have not had a meal this week. I’m scared for the kids who haven’t felt an emotional connection this week. I also know that kids are resilient, and that a little love can go a long way. My heart is exploding with joy when I see teachers and students being there for each other through this. Teachers are learning new technologies. And more importantly, showing kids their own vulnerabilities.
I’m scared for the older generations who have to risk going out for supplies or who might never get to see their families again. I feel restless because I don’t know what to do or how to help other than to virtually reach out.
I have gained a new appreciation for day to day life. I am not going to focus on my sadness, but on the positive parts of my days during quarantine. Here are some pictures of our quarantine activities. Please share any ideas that you have! Or pictures of your happy moments while practicing social distancing.
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